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| so yea ive written some poems....you wanna hear them?? sure ya do....
FORGET ME NOT
if tomorrow i was gone forever,
leaving you with only bitter sweet memories.
memories of laughter or screams or passionate lustful embraces,
could you explain the feeling youd have to me now?
would a tear be too much to ask for time spent alone?
say youd think of me in your passing days.
i would like to think id be etched in your heart forever
but maybe i will float by your memory like the wind.
lost without a friend to talk too or a shoulder to cry on.
have you said everything you needed to say to me?
done everything that was needed to be done?
because im sure i havent.
i dont know if i will have time to do what i want
because fate is cruel and could take any one of us without a second glance.
a cloud of poisones smoke called Death fills your lungs faster than you have time to scream.
but here i am in front of you.
alive to some extent as we all are.
with as many cries un-heard as the next soul who takes that chance.
the chance of love and loss.
it is not our choice as to when we cross over to the other side
but it is our actions and words exchanged that determine in which fashion we leave.
so let it all out, express yourslef, never hold back.
do not let pride get in the way of what makes your life worth living.
youll only end up second-guessing every decision before you make it.
and thats no way to live a life.
not for me anyway.
can i say the same for you?
TONIGHT
Can you see me tonight?
Envision im standing infront of you.
You can feel my breath on your neck, a gental caress that shivers down your spine.
Hands exploring all over our bodies to the point where telling them apart would be almost impossible.
And eager lips are antisipating the taste of something sweet.
Can you hear our uneven breathing in the silence?
Panting, moaning, practically screaming in pleasure.
Gripping so tighly for fear of letting go and never holding again.
You feel the slightly painful but arousing sensation of nails and teeth grazing skin, leaving marks of passion to relish in.
Wanting to draw blood, tear you open, in the most humble way possible.
Along with thoughts of things to be said floating around but you know as well as i do that theres no need for words, not now, not tonight.
Just feel me, closer to you than i ever will be.
Dont slow down, dont stop now.
Instead, embrace the passion thats been subsided.
Fufill the hunger thats growing with an unbearable intensity that you and i both feel.
Because you see, i had only just gotten started.
Oh yes there was more to this than you thought.
Keep in mind that this is only a dream, wishful thinking maybe, or perhaps a memory that ill leave to you.
What you do with it is anybodys guess.
But whats it like to know you cant see me tonight?
OPEN YOUR EYES
that night, you watched me.
you stared with that unpredictable look that i couldnt meet.
my heart, calm at first, steadily rising, wilding pounding in my ribcage.
my head exploding with everything i couldnt and wouldnt say.
hiding my face so you wouldnt see my silent scream, tears fell out of unwilling embarassed eyes.
you must of been relived to see the softer side of my brutality.
what am i supossed to say?
what am i supossed to do?
whisper something sweet, lie to me.
can you say anything to ease my pain?
that night, i watched you.
i stared with an intensity that you never saw.
your throat tightens unexpectedly.
lips, stained with the words they spoke, quiver.
tears on my shoulder were like nothing ive ever had to feel.
eyes close tightly, praying for it to be easier than it is.
but opening your eyes again only brings you back to that night you bound us too.
the night that plays in my head like a movie on repeat.
over and over again.
i would give anything not to remember you, the love, the hate, the passion, the sorrow.
fate brought us here and will lead us on our ways.
hopefully times really does kill the pain.
that night, even tho our eyes were open, we never saw it comming.
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| theres this weird heartbreaking weight in my chest when i think of him
god make it go away | | |
| what do you do when you want to get over someone...but you cant because you love them so fucking much??
its like nothing i can explaine and i try over and over again to find the right words anyway... but i know that anything id say would be pointless and mean nothing
and theres no doubt in my mind that im in love but i dont want to hurt anymore because of it...
everytime i think of trying to get over him, something inside me just turns...not just mentally, but physically a red flag goes up...and i cant do it...i have to keep on trying for him...no matter what happens...its like i just cant give him up.....................and it makes me angry and sad and happy and joyful and frustrated and hopeless
i dont know what the fuck to do....
somedays its not worth trying...
but then i think about his touch and the way he tastes.... and that firey passionate look in his eyes that he had when we touched...the same look he still gives me, it seems almost....set
like us together is fate
hahahah but then i think im a lunatic
so instead i just cry theres no other option...
blahhhhhhhhhh
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| I know there's something in the wake of your smile.
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.
You've built a love but that love falls apart.
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.
Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.
Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.
They're swept away and nothing is what is seems,
the feeling of belonging to your dreams.
Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.
And there are voices
that want to be heard.
So much to mention
but you can't find the words.
The scent of magic,
the beauty that's been
when love was wilder than the wind.
Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye. | | |
| cant stop thinking....
dont you wish that for at least one day you could just take a brake from your own head? ever gotten sick of being in your skin? ever cringed and the sound of your own voice?
well i have and frankly...getting tired of it
i have noone to talk to...and the ppl i want to talk to...i never see
why is it the ppl that i love always fade away from me? like im not talkin bout friendship kinda love...i mean loooove love...it seems something always goes wrong...and things never work out...after a few times of it happening to me...i started to notice a pattern...so wtf is wrong with me? what are they seeing that im not? what is so bad about me that scare ppl away?!
i dont understand it...and im afraid im doomed to never comprehend
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